As I read even the title of my blog Learning to Live Lighter I realize that we are always learning. I've been doing a bit of cleaning and stumbled upon my journal from high school/college. Wow, like totally, for sure times have changed! One thing that was a constant in re-reading my journal entries was that I lacked belief in myself and even way back in grade nine I wanted to lose weight, it started with 5 then 10, 15 and 20 pounds. I know back then I wanted to lose weight to "fit in" but as much as I wanted to I still never did anything about it.
Even now I know I need to change but something is holding me back and I'm not sure what it is. Maybe it because I've already worked really hard to lose weight and blew it and gained weight back. Maybe I'm afraid to try again. To fail again. Maybe instead I need to think about it in a different perspective. Through our failures come our greatest success. Focus on learning and growing to be the best me I can be. Start believing in me. Making me feel good about myself. Because when you don't feel good about yourself you lack confidence, energy, focus and just general happiness. I need to be happy. I deserve to be happy.
Maybe that journal was good to find, maybe I need to write more, blog more, express myself more. I've always loved writing, it's one of the reasons I started this blog in the first place. Another reason I started this blog was to hold myself accountable and to actually share my journey to Living Lighter. I think I can do better at that. No I know I can do better! Maybe I can make this blog my personal journal on my journey.
